Rant
Monday, September 28
-this blog has officially been ditched by it's owner-

why you may ask?
Here's 20 reasons why.

  1. well I no longer have a good excuse to why blogs are not lame.
  2. I don't see the use of ranting or telling anyone about my personal life.
  3. Boring
  4. boring
  5. boring
  6. lifeless?
  7. I rather spend my time doing something else. shopping perhaps?
  8. bored!
  9. LIFELESS
  10. Reading blogs are way better than writing for my own blog.
  11. Diaries are the new BLOGS.
  12. boring
  13. boring
  14. boring
  15. lifeless
  16. lifeless
  17. Bored!
  18. Lifeless
  19. FUCK!
  20. kthxbye
Blahh.
Im in utter bitch mode.
So yeah.
BYE!
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Play your cards right.
Wednesday, September 9
Here's how I play,
here's where you stand,
here's what to prove,
To get any further than where it's been ♥
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Sayang
Tuesday, August 18
So mind me for not updating in like forever.
but thanks to someone ohsocute, he gave me a reason to update.
So here's to Ash and giving my blog 0.2% of life back.
Way to go. :)
Now you fucking owe me lunch.
mwah!

taken from his blog :

so the thing is,
i met this one person yea?
she’s the real deal.
a chick with sense of humor to match.
n yes we’re having lunch/dinner soon.

ps. we’ll blame it on the a-a-a-a-a-alcohol for a long time to come. =)

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Issues.
Thursday, August 13
Confusions & Illusions
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Stabbed.
Friday, August 7
It's times like this when I can't help but fall.
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Words
Friday, July 31
This is me.
No this is what you want me to be.
This is what you want to see.
This is what you want to think of me.
That is all you care,really.


If i told you I am happy today, I'd be lying. :)
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He is Love
Friday, July 24
& today marks a month bangle boy :)
I love you.
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Life is a Maze & Love is a Riddle
Tuesday, July 21
& This is the story of my life.
being dead bored most of my time.
so to entertain my life that is deprived of fun I do this (:

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
My neck. Because it sends goosebumps down my veins :P

2. How did you feel when you woke up this MORNING?
excited because this was the first time SOMEBODY *coughcarmencough* wanted to go for the 8o'clock class. only to find out later she's doesn't want to go butttt i was already ready by that time. hence me all alone here in the computer lab.

3.Who was the last person / people you took a photo WITH?
BANGLE boy

4. Would you consider yourself SPOILED?
Please do define spoiled?

5. Will you ever donate BLOOD?
If I fucking could I would trust me.

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite SEX?
I've yet to find him. I soon would. Fimbart? :)

7. Do you want someone to be DEAD?
Osama, wait is he already dead?

8. What does your last text message SAY?
now why the F would I tell you?

9. What are you thinking about right NOW ?
Again this are my thoughts & their ohsovery PRIVATE! :P

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right NOW?
Well yeah but I'll be seeing him in 1o minutes.

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
12ish

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
P&Co

13. Is someone on your mind right NOW?
Frankenstein

14. Who was the last person who text YOU?
Keshy boo boo

Fav quote at the moment : Suck my Imaginary dick :)
Because I'm perverted like that.
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To My Current Addiction.
Monday, July 20
because your my one and only bangle boy whom makes my days much more worth living for

& because you said I'm less a romantic than I was when I first met you.
so this post is to prove you wrong (:

I know it hasn't been long since I last saw you my dear, but to me it feels as long as five hundred years. (well maybe I exaggerated a lil' but yeah It does feel like five hundred years in a way.)
I miss you to the point I am loosing all sanity,
There has to be an end to all this calamity. I think of you every second and every breath,
For you I would stare even into the face of death.
To kiss your lips is to taste the sweetness of love, or should I say it like Flo-rida does? "Your Lips like SUGAR"?
Kissing you boo brings forth feelings from the heavens above.

Now what I'm longing for is to see you tomorrow.
To give you that big hug I've been promising to give you and also to see your smile that is so divine.


Because I no longer believe in that quote I once was crazy about.
"someday I'll be loved"
Because now boo I am loved by you :)

Hugs. ♥
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Haters.
Saturday, June 27
; thinks people with lifeless life's should get a life, or better yet go buy one :)
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Confused? Indeed.
Thursday, June 18
Sarah Miranda James is a confused child when it comes to boys (:

p/s - I pinky swear; updates soon
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.
Tuesday, June 16
Couldn't give a damn really :)
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Because I'm this close to slitting my wrist.
Sunday, June 14
Tagged by SaktiaChocolateSlurpeeFriend :)

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
Why would I tell you?

2. How did you feel when you woke up this MORNING?
hungover.

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo WITH?
the people I went out with to reggae bar.

4. Would you consider yourself SPOILED?
even if I was? why would I admit to that you dumbass ;)

5. Will you ever donate BLOOD?
I wish I could but the dumb doctor's think I'm underweight. which I know I am. -__-

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite SEX?
Yeah. His name is Bimbo and his my imaginary friend :D

7. Do you want someone to be DEAD?
No. Why would I want anybody dead? That's downright stupid la?

8. What does your last text message SAY?
none of your goddamn business.

9. What are you thinking about right NOW ?
That they would stop acting like I'm a fcuking drama queen.

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right NOW?
Not really. I'd rather be all myself :(

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
3 a.m

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
Ed & Ed babey :)

13. Is someone on your mind right NOW?
pfft what is up with you and questions about what is on my mind?

14. Who was the last person who text YOU?
someone I'm trying to avoid.

there was more to this. but I didn't want to tag anyone so yeah.
kthxbye.
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Love
Tuesday, June 9
Mom & Dad ; Pfft I was not raised in America, I know. So I don't call them that :)
Ma & Papa ; ahh very Indian and I likey very the much ♥


Happy 19th Anniversay.
God! You've been married for 18 years?
that's like 6570 days?
How did you stand each other again?
Haha okay I'll be the stupidest dumbfuck to say 6570 days is a lot of days spend together.
; because quite frankly it's NOT!

Here's a big cyber hug saying a big thank you to the both of you for everything.
from being the most coolest parents on mother earth.
to getting me everything I want ;)
Which includes my laptop and my tongue piercing. heh
And everything else.
For teaching me how to do this and do that.
And also for teaching me how to poop. (which also means "shit")
gawd I'm kidding. That part I learn myself.
WAIT! Did I? *confused*

Okay I'll stop my bullcrapping now.
So again, to the both of you I love you.
Now go make love mom & dad.
As gross as that sounded, I secretly wish they did.
OMFG why am I so weird again?

kthxbye.
Loves!
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Check.
Sunday, June 7
Guess who has another thing to tick off my "To-Do List"?
ME!
I finally got over my fears of asking Dad if it was okay if i got it.
And amazingly he said yes :)
So now I have a tongue piercing. :D

"Before" "After"

Now the hard part, taking care of it.
and the misery of the pain.
HUGS!
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A Friend Lost.
Saturday, June 6
; because I finally realize you used to be one of my closest friend back in the days.
and trying hard to delete you from my life was a obvious mistake.
and so for that here's my sorry. You may not ever read this, since you don't have me on your blogroll anymore. But imma' put you back on, because your still someone I still want to care about ; a friend whom i can trust on when times are bad.
p/s- all harsh things said to you I apologize from the bottom of my heart. (:
LOVES!
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Beautifully Broken
Take it back, take it all back now,the things I gave
Like the taste of my kiss on your lips
I miss that now :(

I can’t try any harder than I do. All the reasons I gave
Excuses I made for you. I’m broken in two
Cause I’m so in love with what we were
I’m not breathing I’m suffocating without you
Do you feel it too?
do you?!

When I’m in the dark and all alone. Dreaming that you’ll walk right through my door
It’s there I know my heart is whole.There's a millions reasons why I cry
Hold my covers tight and close my eyes
Cause I don’t wanna be alone.
No honey I don't wanna be alone.

Cause I can't fake and I can't hate but it's my heart that’s about to break
You’re all I need I’m on my knees watch me bleed won't you listen please,
I give in I breathe out I want you there’s no doubt I freak out
I’m left out without you I’m without I cross out I can't doubt
I cry out I reach out.
Reach out babey! ♥
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Ganja Farmer
Monday, June 1
; because I want you to know I'll be here no matter what happens
Even if you secretly think what I did was totally out my league
Like I said, I'll be here for you no matter what :)

LOVES!
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Mist
Sunday, May 31
Hey.
I'm in no mood whatsoever for updates.
So let get straight to pictures aye?

From stupid cops to Mist to the after party at Sagu's :)







That's it for now.
bye!

; Shut Up already

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Monotone
Tuesday, May 26
; because I still love you.
&& secretly wants the world to know ♥


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Eh Eh.
Friday, May 22
I'm starting to like hanging out with Nonny, Mike, Promise and the rest
and I'm pretty glad to say I've made friends with almost everyone.
Except for longhairbitch and her ohsouglyboyf.

I'm happy I don't have problems making friends
what can I say learning Human Communication does have it's advantages.
and I also think it's because I'm not choosy when it comes to picking my friends.
Benny's hair is awesome :)
I swear Carmen couldn't stop playing with his hair.
I'm inlove with Benny's hair more than I'm inlove with him.
Scratch that I'm not inlove with him.
I have bangleboy :)

and I'm not the only one that's completely inlove with benny's hair.

Sarah Miranda James says:
benny's hair ;)

it is love that brings two person to be one. says:
*his hair IS awesome

Sarah Miranda James says:
*haha

it is love that brings two person to be one. says:
*i think im in love

Sarah Miranda James says:
*with his hair?

it is love that brings two person to be one. says:
*ya

On a completely different note;
I have assignments that are due Monday that I haven't started yet
and a quiz to study for.
sigh College Life

p/s - maybe you should hit things off first babey ;)
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A Star Is Born.
Thursday, May 21
Guess who's in TheStar?
Me, and Carmen
Not bragging but hey I look awesome okay.
No I was lying.
I look way too shitty.
I'm not happy with the end results but what can i say at least I am featured in it.
nah i give you prove :)



Yash found this website, god knows how but she did.
...click!
for a better look on the whole picture :(

All in all I'm way proud to say UCSI does kick ass
and I love that I'm enrolled there :)

p/s - what made you think your sense of fashion would be approved by the experts?
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WordVomit.
Wednesday, May 20
hello :)
cheers to my bimbo whom thinks Akon wrote a song only for her :)
cheers to my holy friend who is falling out of love with Afro and decides to curi mine.
cheers to the ever so loud china man with awesome guitar skills
cheers to the beautiful Indian girl from India with awesome twins(boobies)
cheers to the 16yearold Iranian chic who's partly Malaysian and is in college? wtf!
....but most of all cheers to the boy who makes me get up everyday and eagerly take and an hour or so to dress up just for him :)
cheers to you bangle boy!

; would you come save me already? ♥
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Simon says...
Monday, May 18

hello loves!

Sipping on Mommy's version of the "medal margarita" while listening to Soko do her thing.
It's funny how for one second you can act like a complete fool in front of that special someone and then the next totally realize he's out of my league and stick to my one and only, bangle boy.

Is it me?
Or am i totally into bad boys with badass tattoo's, piercings, and weird hair colour?

Just found out from Joanne that Laura reads my blog.
Hi Laura :)

The urge for me to take on Carmen's bet is getting on my nerve's.
I want so badly to do it but I'm way to shy :)
*flips hair*

My hair's a complete disaster and it screams for desperate attention.
seriously never I repeat NEVER ever get your hair straighten.
Suck balls to keep it maintain every fucking 2 months.

; Honey don't even go there!
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A letter to the Ex.
Friday, May 15
Dear Ex Boyfriend,

-Picture Removed!-

I’m sorry if you think that I am selfish. I hope you can see what is in my heart. I wish you could read my thoughts and my heart. But you can’t. You never have. I guess I keep calling you because I want to know that you’ve have moved on. I also want some closure between us. I am sure that I don’t want us to get back together. The years we spent together was one of the defining moments on my life. It changed me in ways I can never fully grasp yet.

I loved you. I was young and naive. I thought I was incapable of love but you taught me how. I loved you. When I was with you and when I was enveloped in your love, I always thought about you.. Remember the little card I gave you? Written on that small card were the words: thanks for staying over.stay over more often because your my rainbow.(something like that)

I want you to know that I don't want you throwing away anything I've given you.

It is true. When we were together, you were all that I thought about. You were all that I cared about. I may have a hard time expressing my love but you melted my heart. Somehow you did. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I never knew what love was until we met. I never thought I was capable of that kind of love. Similarly, I never thought that I was capable of so much hurt and bitterness.

When I say I loved you, it doesn’t mean that I don’t love you anymore. You have touched my heart in ways I can never imagine. I think once you love someone, you are marked for life. You were once part of my life and I would carry that with me for the rest of my life.

The girl you once knew and the girl who once loved you has grown up. I am not the same person that I used to be when I met you. I have changed. And I’d like to believe that I changed for the better partly because of you. Although it was hard not to be bitter given that you have broken my heart so many times.

I don’t know if you can fully understand what you did to me. I know I’ve been cruel to you. I know that I’ve hurt you. I know it is not right to hurt someone intentionally but I thought that since you’ve hurt me, I want to hurt you back.

You never allowed me to express my sadness when you betrayed me. It wasn’t just that. I trusted you to take care of me. I trusted that when times would get tough, you would be there for me and not take advantage of my generosity. But you did. You took advantage. What really hurt was that you have never allowed me to express my sadness. When I tried to tell you how much I was hurting, you didn’t allow me to speak. It hurt because you never explained why you did something so terrible.

Did you know that it took me days to get over that? I tried to really forgive you. There was a time when I was tempted to leave you because of that. But I stopped myself. But I was so ready to walk away because I was so hurt.

Just try to remember. When we were intimate, did you ever look into my eyes and see the pain? There were times when I wasn’t even there with you. There were times that I would have wanted to be somewhere else.

Two people can be in the same relationship and not have the same experience. I am only giving you my perspective on the relationship. You always said that you were happy when you were with me. You always told me that you were happy being with me. I felt that happiness when you’d kiss my shoulder or my forehead. I felt that happiness when you’d take my hand and kiss it.


I won’t ever forget the kisses that you gave me. The sweet kisses. At that moment, I felt most loved by you. And I still hold on to that memory when I feel lonely. At least, I could say to myself that once upon a time, someone had loved me. And that’s what I’ve always wanted from you. To be loved by you.

I wish you could look back at our relationship and see how necessary it was. How it was meant to be part of our journey in life. How, you were meant to be part of my journey and I, yours. They say that we meet people for a reason. Meetings aren’t just random encounters. People meet each other because they’re meant to be part of each other’s journey.
I may not know it now. You may not know it now. But there was a reason why we met. Even if our journey together ended, at least we can look back and say to ourselves that we have loved. Because we have loved.

Your Once Girlfriend,
Sarah M.James. ♥
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